Back on the Wagon…

I fell off the wagon…not the welcome wagon, the band wagon, and not the sobriety wagon…I fell off the wagon of personal commitment to daily seeking God first thing each morning. It wasn’t a long hard fall; it was more of a gradual slide of shortening my time spent in prayer and Bible study. It then became easier to just work it into part of my day…some where in my day…no certain time…just somewhere. Then before I knew it, I was saying my bedtime prayers and they included my morning prayers as well. The little devotions I was getting from a friend and from a few other sources were substituting for my personal Bible study.

Then it hit me…I’d fallen off the wagon…the wagon of personal commitment to spend a certain time each day seeking to know my Lord better, to praise Him, to honor Him, to intercede for others to Him, and I was feeling pretty yucky!

My days just wore on and I couldn’t seem to focus on anything…when I did try to pray, I’d fall asleep or my mind would wander to other things…I felt like the Hebrews wondering around in the wilderness for forty years! Thankfully, it’s only been days, well maybe a week or so for me but it feels like a long time that I’ve been floundering around with no purpose, no right path to take, no voice from my God saying, “This is the way, walk in it”.

So, I’m back on the wagon as of this morning. I made sure I started my day with prayer, Bible study, and praise and thanksgiving. I didn’t read the other devotions until late in the day. I put first things first…that would be my time with my Savior…after all; He did give His life just for me! Today seemed to have more purpose, I accomplished more today than I have in a week. Aah, the joy that fills my soul when I am grounded in God’s word.

Thank you Lord for bringing your wayward child back to your word…back to the wagon. I thank you that the wagon didn’t leave without me…That you are always there waiting for your children to see the error of their ways and return to You and that you welcome us with open arms…lifting us up on the wagon, into your lap so we can learn from your Word, and rest in your peace and presence. Thank you my Savior!

All my love,
Lisa The Wagon dweller